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Monday, March 27, 2006

dropped by emsie's crib... glad i could distract u frm u the shit u going thru. u can get thru this... im here aite. =) love ya..

then, headed to sch...

met hanaaaaa~! miss u tau... i miss the gang laa... seriously.

then, went to queensway jap wit hana...

my life is shitty coz of u. i hate u. i just hate u. i wanna u out of my life. ill make u get out of my life. soon. i hope. u even called me bloody shit. surprise, surprise. well, thanks for the compliment. for all i care, u're an assholic piece of lifeless bastard.

Smashed into pieces at 3/27/2006 09:01:00 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

well, nth much to update...

let's seee..

went to sch to do the mls booth thingy..

watched movies at sch.. movies marathon~! wooohoo...!

tu je.

yesterday, meeting at dunman sec. ci meeting. punye laaa mendakkkk...!

see.. boring kan. rather nt update..

oh yeah. passed all my modules. moving on to year 2 babyy~

cant wait for sch to reopen... im sooo bored of the holidays...

ta~

Smashed into pieces at 3/26/2006 05:03:00 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

game instruction-the tag victims have to come up with 7 different points of their perfect lover.specify gender of their target.tag 7 victims to join the game and leave a comment on their page saying they're been tagged.if tagged the second time,there's no need to post again.have fun!

gender: Male...

My Specifications :

1) like tas' first answer, acceptin me the way i am & not changing anything about me... accepting my flaws too..
2) my guy has gotta be understanding of my needs, my emotions, my life. of coz, i would def understand his needs and everything about him too. w/o this, we wont ever have a compromise, and thus, things will never work out...
3) honest. faithful. izzit the same? anyways, i would rather haf the truth tt hurts than be left in the dark and look like a fool. trust speaks for itself.
4) tas is defintely rite. =) my guy has to be taller than me! hehhe... no offence to less taller guys... =)
5) a romantic sweetheart. those lil sweet surprises. it doesnt kill to be drop dead romantic once a while, does it?
6) has to be there whenever i need him... coz i will def be there for him..
7) pamper me. hehh.. not ALL the time... coz i dun want his money to go to waste on chocolates every now and then....
Take note: next 7 people..
Ema, Hannah, Elfi, Feli, Ali, Yunique, Zee

Smashed into pieces at 3/21/2006 04:44:00 PM

monday. yesterday.

followed hanif and the sec 3s to bedok npc for practice shoot... after tt, tumpang taxi wit hanif, sakinah and boon ping...

then, headed to geylang change the baju tt mom bought for herself but could fit...

btw, my contact lenses gave me huge problems yesterday. my eyes were tearing up all day long.. and it's like as if im crying... shhesshh...

today.

went to the optician. checked on my eyes. she said the lenses were in good condition. just tt my eyes arent. my eyes, should i say my left eye, is suffering frm an allergy =( like how could tt happen? apparently, my eye didnt have much tears... sooo, dust were still stuck in my eye... thus, the allergy. and nw, i cant wear the lenses for a week or sooo.. damnn..

elfi, blum lagi slim... on the way, i hope. hahahha... just need to workout whenever the opprtunity arises... =)

Smashed into pieces at 3/21/2006 04:29:00 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

saturday nite.

went mkn... dinner at sakunthala(sp?)... the fish curry is tremendously yummy... powerr!!

sunday. today.

went mkn at pasar geylang nye hawker centre... it was def not the rite place to have brunch. the strong aroma of cooking was too much to handle... u know those kinda of cooking smell that irritates ur nose...? yea.. tt kind. ughh.

then went joo chiat, and showed mom this shop. the clothes there are like sooo nice la... so, in the end, got 4 of them! thanks mom =)

headin out to gym soon wit emsie dear...

tas, ill drop by ur blog soon k... muacks~!

till next update.. ta~

Smashed into pieces at 3/19/2006 04:11:00 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

went to town yesterday... did a lil shopping.. got myself
2 bags(for school)
a top
2 girl boxers frm topshop! weeee~

pas tu, went home... loads of fun though... =)

might be heading to gym tmr...

i sooo dun feel like blogging... sheeshh.

anyhoos, johnjohnnyjonathan, who r u..? or issit u, ali kidding ard..? oh watever... bluek.

Smashed into pieces at 3/18/2006 12:53:00 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

im goin crazy. not literally. almost literally.

im still waiting... waiting and waiting...

haizzz....

where is it..?

im waiting...

hurry...

Smashed into pieces at 3/16/2006 05:44:00 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

dammit.. i hate tt nicole frm ANTM... she's sooo ewwww.. i lurveee nik.

and tt 16 yr old kevin frm AI... haha.. he's adorable. and amazing. i mean like... he sang the song like really good.. tt stevie wonder song.. awesome shit. heheh...

oritoes. tu je.

ta~

Smashed into pieces at 3/15/2006 10:45:00 PM

went out today wit my dearest emsie.

warmed up hunnie's bike... then a lot of kekekness happened. ema was like perspiring.. haha.. anyways, thanks babe for teman-ing me... hehe... then headed to kk- kedai kadir- and showed ema "around"... then headed to bugis...

got sth for aisyah... finally got her belated bdae prezzie. then walked ard... so tempted to shop.. but then, ema n i planned to go shopping b4 sch starts... so, sounds like a plan ayee... =) neone feels like joining..?

talked and talked and talked on our way hm.. collected my pants frm U2... then, looked ard this fashion.. tapi takde pape... =(

went hm with the emsie... and ema REPORTED STRENGTH. muahahahhaahaha...!!!! *nudgeee* hehehhe... report strength pe...

hurry home... *miss u lots*

toodles~

Smashed into pieces at 3/15/2006 10:04:00 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

sunday. two days ago.

went to the gym wit ema. great loads of fun. was superb meetin up wit her after a long time.

nw, my whole body is aching. ouch.

monday. yesterday.

the day started off good. but i was kinda drained as the day went by. summing everything up, there were more downs than ups yesterday.

it was sara's pop. it was sad.. yet, good things must come an end. he has done a good job. an excellent job in fact... it was hard on himself when he had to leave the unit.. but, hey.. u'll be back rite..? neway, things went pretty ok, but there had to be screw ups here and there. gd luck, sara. and take care.

as much as i hate yesterday, a lil surprise sms cheered me up... and made me longed to be somewhere else.

tuesday. today.

woke up. ate. later goin mengaji. mom's nagging at me to bring down the laundry frm the jemuran. crapieass.

i miss u, so ever ever badly.

i hate home. i just wanna get out of the house. i hate it whenever the parents or anyone else talks to me... i prefer the parents to think tt i dun exist at all. all they do is nt make me feel good abt myself. i wanna grow up. fast. i want sch to start rite this instant. i want my freedom. nw. life's getting more miserable at hm. sheesh. i cant wait to leave the house, gt a job, earn my own cash....

can i get time to pass faster this 4 days?
can u hurry home please?

Smashed into pieces at 3/14/2006 01:23:00 PM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

The RULES: Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up in one place.Then add your blog to the bottom spot(i have no idea at all wat this means...)
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Just look deep within...
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Then you select 5 people to pass the love on to:
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1) adibah
2) adrena
3) hannah
4) tas
5) zee
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And here it goes :What were you doing 10yrs ago??
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i was like pri 2... and seriously i cant remember. prolly still very innocent... listen to teacher's every word and fear any punishmts and threat.
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5 Songs which you know all the lyrics off your head right now
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1) stickwitu
2) more than words
3) i promise
4) the way to your love
5) picture perfect
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5 things u would do if u are a millionaire?
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1) shopping!
2) shopping~
3) go holidays!
4) get my own hm..
5) basically a new way of living my life...
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5 Bad Habits
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1) ignoring stuff and hope it'll just go away
2) nt sticking to resolutions
3) lazyyyyy!!!
4) get carried away and nt returning to initial topic when talking
5) no-pressure-cant-do-work attitude!!
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5 things i like doing
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1) shopping.. duhhh
2) sleeping
3) get out of the house
4) take pics
5) shopping.
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things u would never wear, buy or get a new one again?
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i wouldnt get or buy anything tt i love in the presence of the parents. simple as that =)
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5 favourite toys
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1) handphone
2) NETS card...
3) lappieee
4)tv
5) MONEYYY!!

Smashed into pieces at 3/12/2006 02:32:00 PM

im so fucking desperate for freedom this instant.

im this close to bursting my anger and frustrations right to the parents' faces. i hate them for not letting me live my life my way. y cant i make my own decisions? y cant they just back away for a moment and see that i can be on my own two feets? they wanna bug in every detail of my life. yeaa... they're the parents.. but, give me some credit, pls. credits for being a young adult. credits for becoming a young adult. they scrutinize down rite to the clothes i wear, who im talking to on the phone.

the moment i hear those questions, i feel anger building up. i just wanna explode. i just feel like telling them just back off a lil. even for a moment, ill appreciate it. but i cant. im a coward.

im sooo afraid tt ill screw up my personal life, my social life due to this.

i dunno wat to do. i mean, im eighteen.. and i still haf the same old shitty problem since i was in sec 1. this is soo unbelieveable.

god noes if anyone goes thru the same fucked up life. i dunno till when i can keep up wit this. i just dunno. there's this thing tt building up in me... sooo fast... ever sooo fast.. just like the tears tt's rolling down my cheeks rite nw. just like the tears i let out every nw and then. but, it's such a waste of time, coz i dun feel any better.

a psycho..? a crybaby..? an immature teenager? i dunno. i dun seem to know myself when im at hm. i duno even know who i am. im this loving, caring, happy, easy going, frenly girl who everyone know outside. however, when im at home, i dun think i behave in the same manner. i feel anger, pain, locked up, misunderstood.

i have tried to ignore the frustrations when im at hm for far too long. i try nt to blog abt angry stuff. sad stuff. fucked up stuff. but i cant bear it anymore. i HAVE to vent it out. well, readers, im sorry if i've waste ur time rite up to this point.

my life is sooo pretty when im out of the house.... but it's all destroyed once i get hm. i dun want my beautiful life to screw up bcoz of this. i found everything tt i ever wanted. everything tt i dreamt of. but, my home issues just have to interrupt this dream. soo, prolly it's all a dream. prolly one day, ill lose YOU. one day, ill lose them. ill lose all the things tt dun ever wanna let go.

Smashed into pieces at 3/12/2006 01:13:00 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006

oooooh. and hw come i cant leave posts/comments on LJs...?!

Smashed into pieces at 3/10/2006 11:31:00 PM

I said a prayer
That someday I would find a boy
And together we’d find joy
Maybe someday
And he would care
About the color of the sky
About the things that make me cry
Maybe someday

And if it happens this is what I'd say:

And I will give you my life
Together we'll make it right
And I will say to you
What is for sure
That I'll give you my world
And baby I'll be your girl
And I will say to you
Everything I have is yours

Smashed into pieces at 3/10/2006 11:22:00 PM

i sooo cant believe will is OUT.. will is cute seyyy...and he's onli 17.. i tot he's 19. sheeshh...

anyhoos, went for npcc todae. sara's POP on mon. i dunno whether to look foward to it or nt... must admit tt i DO feel a lil bit sedih laaa.. hey, im frm the first batch of his NCOs. and he's the one tt changed most things for the better. he's like the phenomenon of siglap npcc. well, more stuff after the POP.

i love *X1*... hehhe...

tenOthreeOsix. =)

girlfrens, a day out soon..? anyone..? sotong? ali? ems? feli? pls no last min planning... =)

ta~

Smashed into pieces at 3/10/2006 08:27:00 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Wedsnesday. yesterday.
HAPPYYY BIRTHDAYY TO AISYAHHH...!!!
k.. moving on. had meeting at sp... for FO camp. then follwed hana go geylang to exchange her clothes or sth like tt... then went back to sch for nite walk. after joining them for a few distance, i went home.. coz it was soo late already. was sooo tired laa..

Thursday. today.
went for meeting.. was very latee.. sorry ye, arif =) discuss the camp launch. gerekz =) then lepek in mls jap.. pas tu, balik..

tmr, got npcc. mcm malas mau pergi.

ta~

Smashed into pieces at 3/09/2006 11:23:00 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

decided to change my bloggie's skin to something much more plain and simple. no frills and all.

=)

Smashed into pieces at 3/07/2006 07:17:00 PM

updates.


SUNDAY.
went to the career seminar at suntec wit zaidi. it's crappy shit. then mkn at LJS. then went hm.


MONDAY. yesterday.
went to book a date for basic theory test. yes. as in, theory test for driving license. yups. im on my way to getting a driving license. i took my first step. so, we'll see hw things go in the future. went makan @ yasalam... then headed back to pasir ris whitesands where i had a meeting wit the siglap CIs. discussed and talked and laughed and dragged and sidetracked.. and finally concluded.

ignoring? avoiding eye contact? oh. watever. bullshit. i dun give a heck. i didnt regret at all my decision the last time round. ok? though a lil hostility is felt, i dun care. at all.

anyhoos, after the meeting, went hm.


TUESDAY. today.
woke up very da late... and damn, it felt great. woke up at 11 sth.. nearing to 12. slacked in front of the tv, watching "anak bapak".. the old p ramlee show. hah. then got ready for ngaji. yupz... i went mengaji after sucha looooong time. and, dammit. i didnt feel good reading the Quran. like seriously. i sounded like some kid tt just learnt to read the Quran. anyhoos, after tt, here i am.


dunno wat to do... so... yeahh... tu je..


toodles~

Smashed into pieces at 3/07/2006 05:17:00 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

got this from ali's LJ....

frizzy -- [noun]: A hard-core grave robber 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

nurul syahidah -- [noun]: A dance involving little to no clothing 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

frizzylady -- [noun]: A master blogger 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Smashed into pieces at 3/04/2006 05:33:00 PM

yesterday, being back in siglap felt good. im back in action. well, sort of. it waS a good start.

staying at home today...


ietahmihoshcum.uoynosfoahctib.imaneetthgierofs'nevaehekas.telemevahymnwoefil.ymnwognikcufefil.


it was sooo nice to see u... even though it's less than an hour.



btw, i dun feel 8teen at all. frm the way someone treats me, i feel like im some girl just entering a phase in her teenage years. if this is the case, i dun wanna grow up. i wanna get out.


Dont want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey take me away
I want to shout out
Take me awayawayawayawayaway.

Smashed into pieces at 3/04/2006 04:32:00 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

hello all.


exams are overrrrrrr!!!! im on my holidays now... or my semester break so to say. wat's in store..? i have no idea...


for all i now, i gotta activated myself to be involved in NPCC once again... since exams are over. but wait... im in the committee for the MLS FO camp.... well, we'll see hw things go.


exams were ok. nt too hard, nt too easy. i kinda did a stoopid mistake. applied mechanics paper. was supposed to do FIVE ques for section C, but i did onlie FOUR. coz wat i saw was "four questions" but... it's actually " four other questions"... so.. there went my 12 marks. shitnits kan... i still feel sooo dumb.


well, as loong as i can pass, i guess im ok wit tt.


gonna miss sch.... the guys... and my gfs...


prolly enrolling for driving lessons soon.... tapi, afraid i cant make time for it.... mcm it's a first step to the adult world. crappy... i know.


heading down to siglap soon....


updates will much more frequent now. hopefully. =)


ta~~

Smashed into pieces at 3/03/2006 12:16:00 PM